That Self Confidence!

After giving birth, there's alot of changes in me; specially my hormone. Instead of having my period once a month, I had twice a month. Good? No good? Well apparently my doctor say it's normal for a new mum to have this kinda situation. And again, since I'm on cesarean, my period will either be longer or shorter. The longest I had was 9 days. And during my period, I ALWAYS had a big cramp and nerve pain on my cesarean area. I do get panicked at first. But after getting myself assured by the doctor, it's actually normal. So I need no worries bout it. :)

During my last visits with my gynae doctor, I did asked for contraceptive pills. But, the doctor don't really advice me to it. It's all due to cardiomyopathy. Well, after my confinement end, I was diagnosed with it. What a luck! But alhamdulilah, I'm much better now. Just that I need to take my medication daily and I may need to go for another blood test and echo scan on the 17 September. So, all my gynae could say to me is, "wear condom!!". To tell the truth, I don't really fancy that "rubber ducky". No excitement lah. Hahaha.

Another part of changes that I'm facing now is my body shape. Most people around me says that my body remain the same like how I used to look before. But with my own eyes to witness, I really don't see it. I dunno where's my self confidence went to, really! My weight may have went down, but the shape, I don't really see any changes. How I missed doing core exercise and kick boxing. It feel so awkward for not doing all this for so long. And everytime I see my husband carry those barbells and doing his regular core exercise, I feel a little jealous. Well, the only weight lifting I do now is carrying my baby. Hehehe. Does that count too? Hahaha.

Oh well, I really look forward for September to end. Cos I can't wait for my medical test to be over and hopefully and praying hard that the results would be positive. I can't stand nor swallowed those medication daily anymore. Sick and tired of it. Best of luck to me! (n_n*)